A devil's mind is an idle workshop, which seldom works

I believe in god which gives belief in myself. The conversations with him grew longer in search of empathy. It reached a secretly maddening level to an extent where I wanted to be Jim Carrey from the movie "Bruce Almighty." By February first week, without any leads, working for the world cup was a foregone conclusion. My first dream was in shambles, and I told myself that I was actually expecting too much. My next possible goal was the IPL in April. Not knowing how to be convinced with the inability to reach my B-HAG, I was nibbling away time. Probably that is why it's called the B-HAG. I was baffling my already scrambled mind with a lot of inert questions on how to land myself a job. I understand that an idle mind is a devil's workshop. But I also understood that a devil's mind is an idle workshop, which seldom works. This is the period when you feel that god is unfair only to you. Rather this is 'also' one of those periods when you feel that way.